#love the idea of stoner sam and at least one universe where weed is a terrible idea for him

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sam is so fucking tired of the devil screaming in his ears.

he reads online that weed is a good way to calm down. to relax. to ward off a panic attack and maybe get some fucking sleep.

but he did not read online that marijuana can be so incredibly harmful for the mentally unwell.

he does not read online that people who hear voices that aren’t real shouldn’t touch weed with a ten foot pole.

so he gets high. out of this world high. green-out on the dirty motel bathroom floor high.

seeing things that are not there high.

and when he comes down from his high,

there are more voices.

new voices.

ghosts long dead coming to taunt him.

delusions coming out of nowhere, in the middle of the night while dean sleeps and sam stares at the ceiling.

an invisible girl asks why he’s sad. a clown jeers every time dean makes a dumb joke.

his buried father asks him what went wrong.